the winter is coming and the nights are getting darker. this is draining my energy, which eventually leads to depression over work not done. in an attempt to see the situation more clearly, i will list my accomplishments. i am supposed to be a) writing my aforementioned dissertation b) reading texts that pertain to said dissertation and c) completing other projects.

today i looked at the project (proofreading) worked for a while and then stopped after i got too anxious to continue (or is that proof reading? thank good for google). i haven't read anything over the past couple of days, but i have moved the books around. the pile that was on the left is now on the right and the book that was on the kitchen table has been removed to the vestibule. i am feeling more confident on the writing, though. i opened a new document, which shall be home to the paper i will present in december. perhaps after posting this blog entry i shall add my name, the title of the dissertation, "draft of chapter 4".

other significant developments include joining facebook and buying a usb memory stick. i am being social and upgrading my technology. i like my memorystick, it's cute and pink and its 2 mb are way more than i actually need. i'm scared i'll break it, though, it's my first memorystick and i don't have any experience with how fragile they are.

disclaimers, clarifications, and a proposal

I'm having a hard time justifying having a blog. I don't really see the point of everybody having a newspaper column and a blog. Then again, why not?
A couple of explanations: the psychotic title has particular meaning for me. It has to do with my work, and no, I'm not a serial killer. I marked my profession in the profile section as non-profit, this is true in a very concrete sense. Actually I suppose something along the lines of 'student' or 'science' would have been more accurate, but fuck Grice, what does he know?
Mainly, here's the deal: I am writing my dissertation. This is stressful. To help alleviate the stress, I decided to start a blog to bitch, whine and complain about all that is wrong with the world. I don't get out much, so at this point I'm thinking along the lines of, "why people don't respect the bicycle lanes" and "can you believe the hypocricy of MTV." Also people who can't spell should look for cover.

I suppose I always kind of wanted a blog, even before they existed. Now I think I need a blog as an outlet for anger to keep my aggression in check. The other thing that works is swimming. We'll see about this writing thing.